Too pissed to care at the moment whether its rude or not to post again so soon after my last entry. There seems to always be a few homework assignments like this every semester. Im a competitive person, its just my nature, even if I dont show outwardly I still feel the desire to at LEAST be as good as the average. Theres some things that I resign to the fact that I will never be good at, and I came to terms with those long ago. What pisses me off though is when people seem to be able to do a homework assignment no problem Hell, in just a 3 hour sitting WHILE in another class (thus frequently distracted), one was able to do the assignment with basically one or two small problems. Me, Ive spent probably a combined 5-6 hours on this one assignment and I havent gotten over half the problems right. It just pisses me off and frustrates the hell out of me. I can handle it better when Im not thinking Im the only dumb ass and other people are having trouble as well. But when I appear to be the only moron then it starts to bother me, especially when its something I used to be (or usually am) good at.
The particular assignment of my loathing is this fiber optics homework. Its basically a bunch of math. The problem is like electromagnetics last semester its 239892398234 equations with 23092348029340 variables. In this case though the problems are noticeably easier than electromag was...but its STILL killing me
I think this is really proving my character, I do not have the tenacity for grad school unless its a subject that is simply time consuming (like an MBA). Toiling over equations that SHOULD be right but dont give the correct answer is not the kind of puzzles I enjoy.
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